Mother's Day

I was just reading a friend of mines blog about Mother's Day. I so feel for him losing his Mom. I lost my mom too 27 years ago to Alcoholism. It took me 26 of these passing years to vist her grave. I have always been afraid to go. There was just some much emotion. I went with my 2 brothers which made it easier. We planted her favorite flowers that we remember growing up. She called us her 3 Clevland Indians. LOL I can still here her saying it. We sat there and talked about stories when we were little. I know she is in a better place, but I miss her. Life goes by so fast. Pick up the phone & tell your Mom you love her. I wish I could.

Almost Another Friday

Work has been crazy all week & to have my HD blow up again just added to the fun! So here I am back up and running. Well this week I decided to get my butt outside & start pulling weeds. Where did they all come from? I didn't invite them. But the weather is so beautiful and my lilac bush has bloomed. I would spend all my time outside if I could. I have this Image in my head of what I want my gardens to look like. But its like that recipe in a cook book lol It never looks that way. Yay for summer!

Almost Friday!

Another week almost over. This one has been very emotional, and I don't even know why. I just feel like I can burst into tears at any moment. :*(

Bored

Almost 2 pm and all my work is finished. I am bored! Why is that you are either busy as hell, or it is dead. Never a happy medium.

I guess I will start getting things planned for our big July 4th bash, which is going to be on June 30th lol, need a weekend to recover. I make tons of food and stress myself out until the party is in full swing, or after a few drinks. I will be meeting some online friends for the first time. It is almost like you know them personaly. I met my friend Maria last year. We have been online friends for about 3 years. Shes a sweety & I love her like a sister. I think need to give her more alcohol this year hehee. Now Matt who is coming I have never met. He is a smart ass online, and I really feel the need to smack him when I meet him :P Some of my husbands gamer friends will be coming too. It should be a fun time.

Changing The Calendar

Wow, May 1st already. Where is the time going? Sometimes I sit back and reflect on how I got to this point. How many people actualy are where the intended to be 10 years ago? Well I guess this is how it was meant to be. For the most part, I am happy with my life. But sometimes I feel so lost. I made this blog for a place to express myself without being judged for it. Sometimes we all need to vent!